March 1- March 7th
day 1- 5 I have gotten up every morning and looked in the mirror- no change can't stand the sight of myself and don't believe what I am telling myself- its pretty horendous
I am Accepted is the theme of the first 2 weeks...
Day 1- I am God's child. John 1:12
such a hard one- its hard to just be a kid- it struck me that children are often okay with who they are and what others think of you
I walked around school- what do people think- 3 people asked if I was sick- "letting people know I am healthy is justification for wearing makeup- right?" - No answer
Day 2- As a disciple, I am a friend of Jesus Christ. john 15:15
no longer a slave but a friend- freedom
Today was not a good day- the mirror seemed more unfriendly than usual- " Why am I doing this again?"
Day 3- I have been justified Romans 5:1
this verse talks about because we are justified - we have peace- amazing peace is what I want
I almost caved the mascara was just sitting there so easy and with in my reach- can make up become an addiction- I think so I feel like an addict quitting cold turkey- maybe I should have slowly weaned myself off it all- ahh this is so difficult
Day 4- I am united with the Lord, and I am one with Him in spirit.1 corinth 6:17
this make up fast is bringing up more than just my need to be beautiful- to be accepted- but also approval- I feel completely vulnerable - it is also bringing up alot of other issues- stuff I thoought God and I had dealt with- as cheesy as it sounds- I think I am getting closer to the heart of the matter.
Day 5- I have been bought with a price and I belong to God. 1 corinth 6:19-20
19Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own?
20For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body.
I was struck more than usual- this verse has always had the power to bring me to tears- Im not sure if you have Redeeming Love but my mind always goes to this and then the book of Hosea and what a beautiful picture that is- I am worth the price- why do I sell myself short? Why can't I believe that I am not worth it? Who has told me that? am I glorifying God by selling myself short? by saying I am not worth it? Yes. I wish I had the answer ...
Day 6 - I am a member of Christ's body. 1 corinthinas 12:27
Something funny happened today- i was looking in the mirror and I said you are beautiful- and I believed myself - I full out believed myself- it was wonderful- better than any guy saying it, or my mom, or friends because it came from a place within- not sure if it will last into tomorrow- but I did a victory dance held my head high all day and couldn't stop smiling- I am beautiful
Day 7- I have been chosen by God and adopted as His child. Ephesians 1:3-8
I realized somehting today- I was thinking about myself again- when the thoguth struck me- of course I care what people think- Im so wrapped up in thinking what are they thingking of me? No wonder my self worth is low all I can do is wallow in it- Goodness Lil- get up our of your pity party and think about others- the verse Phillipans 2:3 popped into my head- don't be selfish, dont live to make a good impression on others- instead think of others first, be humble and interested in others lives... or somehting along those lines- I am making an effort to do that today- think about others- funny how it is such a small thing but can really change your whole out look on life...
Day 8- I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins. Colossians 1:13-14
It is Sunday- and that means I can wear makeup-as I put the makeup on this morning I was struck by just how much makeup I had-haw much money time and effort went into this face of mine- things I probably could have spent more wisely- i had always thought I was a modest make up putter oner- but it doesn't feel that way- I was really looking forward today- putting makeup on- but it just felt like a huge let down... sigh
